Your Beautiful Email Touched Me - Jul 29

Ohhhh Mom you just know me too well. You are just too good at your job 😉
Thank you first of all for that beautiul email, that really touched me. I needed that and you said exactly what I needed to hear. Im happy to report I've had a fantastic week this week!

Last week was a hard week, I know I can’t be happy all the time, but I want to! Feeling homesick is a real thing.  Several Angel mothers came and talked to me and cheered me up and really gave me the strength I needed. I love my mission and I want to be here more than anything else, but there just the times I want to talk to you haha. That’s why I was so grateful for these angel moms that literally surrounded me. I love these people with my entire hearts.

Buuuuuut they aren't you. I was explaining this to Sister Baldock on Saturday morning when I just kinda woke up in a funk and wanted to talk to you. Sister Baldock is my best friend, seriously I love her and we are going to be lifelong friends. But she isn’t you. And she isn’t the type to ever bring anything up if she can see I’m having a hard time, like you would. So when I feel bad or sad, you know how I am, I just have to talk through everything out loud! And that’s why we could talk for hours (and probably way more now!) because we are both pretty similar and like to talk!! You just have this crazy gift of always knowing exactly how I feel and talking me through it and counseling me. I NEED THAT!!

So Sunday night (well I guess last night) Sister Baldock and I sat down and we talked for 3 HOURS hahahahaha it was the best thing in the world!!! I just needed that so much and so did she. We really bond over hard things on our missions and really beautiful things we’ve learned. It was so nice to just talk mom! She was like wow I forgot what it’s like to open up! It was awesome.  Love that sister.

It was so nice to have someone to talk to, if you know what I mean! I know I’m a perfectionist, that weakness has been with me for a loooong time! I wonder if I’m doing enough, if I am speaking the language well enough, if my family will be proud of me, if my testimony has grown enough… I honestly wouldn’t trade a mission for anything, but it is hard, especially if you are hard on yourself already.

Sorry this is just how my brain is running right now, a mile a minute and way faster than I can type!

So thank you Mom, for being who you are and loving me. That’s really all I can ever ask of you. I love you so much more than I can even put into words. You’ve changed my life and picked me up off the ground so many times. You’re my coach! And the greatest mentor I could have.

I completely miss you so much and want to be with you and the family. Like c’mon, I’d be crazy if I said I didn’t miss little fuzzy watermelon head Nash! I love my family!

But seriously Mom, God is so good. He really loves me a lot and is taking care of me. Remember that scripture I shared in my last weekly email? Well, the promised blessing was fulfilled! We just had miracle after miracle happen this week, where we would look at each other with wide open mouths and shock! Like, is this even real?! This is the Lord’s work and He is caring and leading all that are involved. I hope so much to see Mishell be baptized soon! (I’ll explain that in my weekly email!)

You know, I think you will see that I’m different when I get home. Have you noticed any changes in me from emailing over the past 14 months?

I know that I feel more confident in helping people. I really have innovative ideas that come through the Spirit. Heavenly Father just never lets me run low on ideas! There is always a solution and I just see it map itself out in my mind! I know that’s a gift from God.

I was reading my patriarchal blessing earlier this week and wrote new things I noticed down alongside what sister Baldock wrote down in my comfort blessing last week. I noticed that there is one common denominator: my gifts and talents are given to me in order to bless the lives of others! Everything it talks about in my patriarchal blessing is somehow linked to how I will use it to help someone else. I hope I can always live worthy and humbly enough to do that. I love being an instrument, however weak and rusty, in God’s loving hands.

Oh, my goodness it’s so hot outside. I drank 3 liters of water every day this week!! It’s so much water hahaha. Thanks for sending me with those really light Forever 21 skirts! They are keeping me alive r.i.p.

Hey, I love you a million, just a millionth reminder :) I’m sorry I’m not always great at emailing and pictures, its slightly stressful but I do it because I love you! Have a happy week mom!!

Sister Ingalls Jr.